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I told Professor Dumbledore what I did now that I'm back at school. The one in my time, I mean. I told him what I did, why I did it and that I would be handing in my Prefect badge. I know acted rashly and childishly, and... I won't be surprised if Potter never wants to speak to me again. I told Professor Dumbledore I don't deserve to be a Prefect anymore because I sunk down to Potter's level, and maybe even a bit further than that. I turned into a bully, like the students I stand up to on the behalf of those who get pushed around, simple as that.

And he made me keep my badge. He told me that it was a human reaction and even the best of wizards have acted on their tempers. It was strange, but before I left he said something about "sadness flying away on the wings of time" and not forcing forgiveness. ...Bit odd, that. I don't see why I would force him to forgive me....

[Locked to Remus]

When you see this, can you meet me outside the History of Magic classroom? I have something to talk to you about and it's very important.

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[Remus's arms come up to wrap around Lily, aiming for gently hugging her back but he's upset so they wrap tighter than that, hugging her back firmly. He laughs, slightly.] ...you're too nice to me. After all that my friends put you through...

You're not your friends and you haven't been awful to me and Sev. I'm grateful for that. [The smile on her face grows as she holds Remus close. She won't let go until he's ready to.]

[Remus doesn't care that she's a girl and that if they were caught like this, in an abandoned room in each other's arms, people might start to talk. He's a wolf, on the inside, and being held like this, it fulfills some basic inner need for contact, so. He's not going to let go quite just yet. He moves to rest his forehead on her shoulder, a bit awkward because of their height difference] I don't really see how I'm worth the effort, though. My friends...they're part of the package, after all.

Then maybe I can try getting to know them better. You did say that they have their nicer sides. Besides, I might be able to figure out why they do what they do to get in so much trouble.

[Remus nods against her shoulder, taking several moments to collect himself some more before pulling back to look into her eyes] They know, you know. About... [God, he couldn't even say it aloud] They've known since second year. And...Lily, the things they've done for me... I know that you might only see them as troublemakers, but. They're so much more. Peter, and James, and...and Sirius. [He tries very hard not to make the last name sound any different than the first, but doesn't really succeed.] I don't know how I would've managed, without friends like them. Friends like you...

I should have known they would have figured it out before me. As much as I loathe to admit it, they're all smart and they do spend more time with you, having you in their dormitory for five years. [She notices that and only gives him a questioning look, but doesn't inquire further.]

[Remus pulls back, having collected himself enough to be embarrassed, but still grateful that she had hugged him nonetheless. He's going to have to go and tell Sirius about this, though, after he's done here. Possibly get some quality cuddling time with him as well] ...I'm sorry. That I overreacted. It's just. [He sighs] No one's supposed to find out about this. I... I must not be being careful enough...