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[flower_of_lions]

I honestly would love nothing more than to destroy this book if it didn't mean I would lose any method of staying in touch with certain people with the community. Over the past two weeks it has been reappearing in my workspace in place of whichever school book I have out. If I leave it off to the side for too long, it bounces off my head until I lock it my bag. And then it always seems to find a way out. I've already spent nearly an hour explaining about this book and the community to Sev. Everyone else seems to think I have a hexed book.

So, in the hope of convincing it to leave me alone while I study for my OWLs, I am writing in it, as it seems to want. The past week's silliness aside, how is everyone? I count myself fortunate to avoid the mess that last virus caused.

[Failed private, open to anyone she's talked to before]

Dear me, it's been some time since I last had an entry only in this book. If I figured out the locking mechanism on this correctly, I should be the only one to see this.

A couple weeks back, I broke things off with Mark, my now ex-boyfriend. I guess I just didn't feel the right connection with him, not to mention he's been acting slightly more clingy than normal. My decision was made easier when he started interfering with my time to study and meet up with my friends. I couldn't take it any longer. Not with Prefect duties and the exams to study for. He's a sixth year! He should remember how stressful the months leading up to the OWLs are!

To be honest, it's rather nice being single again. I'd almost forgotten what it's like, since I was with him for nearly a year.

Comments

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

That's too bad about Mark, but I'm glad you did break it off. Especially if he was just stressing you out.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

How did you see that?! It was supposed to be private! Did I use the wrong spell for the lock? It seemed simple enough.

Remus, if I can't even enchant this book properly, how am I ever going to pass my OWLs?

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Lily, your OWLs and this book are completely different things. And you just have to get the hang of this place. It's not too bad, though, I promise.

How have you been? Sorry I haven't had much of a chance to talk to you. We've both been pretty busy, lately.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure how I've been anymore. I've been refreshing my brain on everything we've learned since arriving, doing rounds when assigned, dealing with Mark, and doing all the coursework we get assigned for our current classes. I felt bad turning down Professor Slughorn when he asked if I could make a Slug Club gathering, but he understands my studies come first. To top things off, I've started telling off students who interfere while I try to concentrate on my work.

Honestly, Remus? I could do with a break. The summer holiday can't come soon enough this year.

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

I definitely hear you on needing a break from school. Granted, I say that now... As soon as I've had a few weeks off to myself, I'll miss it and want to come back again.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I'm sure I'll agree with you once July comes along. I'm sure sixth year will be slightly less stressful, what with maintaining our grades and only the end-of-year exams to worry about.

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

I don't know. Just the fact that it's sixth year in and of itself is going to have me pretty stressed.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I did say slightly less, though I just know the longer we progress through sixth year, the more stressed I'll get. Especially knowing our NEWTs would be rapidly approaching....

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Merlin. Don't remind me. I don't want to think about it, yet.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Sorry, Remus. I think it might be best to keep our thoughts on the current year, and worry about sixth and seventh years later on.

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[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

True. We haven't completed fifth yet. Better not worry about any later ones yet.

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

The community does that, I've found. Usually at times when the only reason you are ignoring it is because you're buried in work, so you have my sympathies.

[Locked]

... Ah, Lily, not to put too fine a point on it, but I don't think your lock worked as well as it ought to have done.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Thank you, Arthur. I hope after this, it will allow me to ignore it for a while longer.

[Locked]

You can see it too? Oh, Merlin... How could this possibly get any worse?

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

One could at least hope it'd have the decency to let you take your exams in peace. Heaven knows how important they are.

[Locked]

It may be scant comfort, but at least you can be sure that the lad in question can't see it.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't be nearly as upset if it had just waited another month.

[Locked]

You have an excellent point.

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

That's Sod's Law for you.

[Locked]

I do come up with them on occasion. Regardless, I'm glad that you're happy with the decision anyway.

[Locked]

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I think it was a few months coming, to be honest.

[Locked]

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

That bad, eh?

[Locked]

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Ever since Harry asked me why I was going out with someone I didn't love around the holidays, I think what he said was stuck in the back of my mind. A couple months ago, I started seeing his faults, the parts of him I had ignored for so long. The parts of him that I didn't quite like. Last month I felt us growing distant, so perhaps that's what brought out his clinging side.

...Was I looking too deeply into things?

[Locked]

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

It's difficult to say, really. Relationships are complicated at the best of times, but even so, often it's the case that you honestly don't notice someone's faults until someone else does something to make it so.

[fromacupboard]

You only like certain people?

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Mark wasn't that great anyway.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

No, no, it's not like that. There are so many people with the community that I don't know yet. Most of those that I do know, I like talking to.

[Locked]

...You saw it too?

[fromacupboard]

Oh.

I always check the community before I sleep and it never bothers me during the day. Maybe you should do that.

[ Locked ]

...Was I not supposed to?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I suppose I could. Or I could bring it on rounds, see if that will keep it quiet.

[Locked]

It doesn't matter anymore. I didn't mean for anyone to see that part, but so far, everyone has.

[fromacupboard]

It should work, I think.

[Locked]

Oh. Are you happier without him?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Hopefully, it will. Thank you for the advice, Harry.

[Locked]

I feel... more free without him, so maybe a little happier.

[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...Sorry for what?

Strike crossed out, but still readable

[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

Everything?

For Mark being so bad. What else?

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

[she is suspicious of you... VERY SUSPICIOUS]

For your information, Potter, he wasn't that bad. It was just one slight character flaw that didn't work well with my busy schedule. ...And exactly what do you mean by "everything"?

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[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

You weren't meant to see that. It doesn't matter.

I'm just sorry it didn't work out. Just trying to be nice for once. You know, have a conversation that doesn't involve me asking you out or insulting your friends?

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...Did you hit your head or something?

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[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

Yes because something has to be wrong with me to be nice to you.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Potter, I can't think of a time when you were ever nice to me, unless you were looking for something to come of it.

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[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

In case you hadn't noticed, I've had a girlfriend that wasn't you for more than three months. And also, I haven't taken Snape's pants off since last year either. So I am just being nice because I want to and not expecting anything in return.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I would have to be an idiot not to know that. Oh, well, forgive me for my glaring oversight in your behaviour toward my best friend! It's not like you haven't done anything else to him in that period of time. Oh, that's right. You did.

You know what, I just had a brilliant idea. Why don't you just leave me alone. I have a lot of studying to do to prepare for our exams.

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[quidditch-stag.livejournal.com]

It's your own fault anyway. I don't know why I even bothered trying to be nice to you. Maybe I'll get Mark to bug you even more.

[And he slammed the book shut, extremely annoyed.]

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

Welcome to hell, Evans. There is no escaping the demon magic books.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Black, don't be an idiot. There must be a way to work around them.

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

Evans, Dumbledore hasn't figured a way out of this community. Face it, you're stuck.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Perhaps he's too busy to think of a way to get out, or he simply doesn't want to. I'm sure if he wanted, he could most definitely find the means to do so.

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

Uh huh. If you were Dumbledore and had to deal with the viruses, would you want to stick around?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I don't know how Professor Dumbledore thinks. The one on the community is older than the one in our time, so for all either of us know, he might enjoy the occasional virus.

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

I don't think anyone enjoys the viruses.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Not to our knowledge, at any rate.

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

Right, so why would Dumbledore?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I... I don't know. [She feels a bit traitorous even thinking of adding "because he's a bit mad sometimes".]

[why-so-me.livejournal.com]

I think he's just as stuck as the rest of us.