[Locked from James, Sirius and Harry]

[flower_of_lions]

I'm starting to think I shouldn't have Confunded Potter to keep him from crashing Slughorn's party last night. But can you blame me? I didn't want him butting in. I have a boyfriend and he seems to enjoy trying to hex them or scare them off.

Anyway, as soon as Dad and I got in the door, Mum told me to change into something smart because Tuney's boyfriend was coming for dinner. So while Mum finished setting the table the doorbell rang. I answered and there was this young man, bit older and taller than me and Tuney, and also rather... heavy. Before I could ask who he was, Tuney rushed right by me and pulled him inside. So I went and asked Mum and she said, "Oh, Lily, I thought Petunia told you already. That's her boyfriend, Vernon Dursley. She broke up with David a few weeks after you left for school."

Then Mum introduced me properly to Vernon, we all sat down for dinner, and I didn't have much to say for the rest of the night except to say goodnight when he left. I don't think I've ever seen my sister so happy and in love with someone before....

But this means that Tuney could be Harry's aunt. He said his uncle's name was Vernon. I want to believe that it's just more of a coincidence, that maybe the surnames don't line up. But deep down, I think there is no coincidence. I think I might be Harry's mother in the future. But James is his father. But that means...

Oh, Merlin's beard, no! I wouldn't. I could never. It's impossible. Maybe when I wake up in the morning, I'll find out this is some awful nightmare. If it is, I swear I'll try to be nicer to James next time I see him and I'll never use a Confundus Charm on him ever again.

((Replies dated to the following morning.))

Comments

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Lily, how else would you explain the fact that eventually, at least in the universe that Harry's from, that the two of you are his parents?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...Good point. Using Love Potions or the Imperius Curse doesn't seem his style, especially as he probably would have attempted one of them by now.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

No, definitely not his style. He wants you to like him for him, not because of some sort of trick. I just hope...that you finding this out now doesn't change how things work out for the pair of you in the future...

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

That's good.... [And now true guilt is starting to seep in.] I guess... it depends on how I think of him while we're in school and after we leave.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

I think...that maybe the best thing to do from here would be to just try and see James for James. I mean... I know that that's not going to be an easy task, or anything like that, but. At least one version of you liked him, so. I. I wouldn't be so quick to throw the idea out the window as impossible, you know?

[God, he really hopes that he's saying the right things, here...]

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it might be possible later on.... But that's if he ever speaks to me again after what I did. He didn't bother me at all during the train ride home or as we were all leaving King's Cross Station. He didn't even look at me....

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

"After what you"...? Wait. What do you mean, by that?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I used a Confundus Charm on him to make him think I kissed him. I know it was selfish of me, but he was threatening to crash Slughorn's party and I know he would have made it miserable for me, my date, and especially Sev.

I don't know why I'm so worried about him, I'm sure he'll be fine by the time we come back from break.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Ah. So, I take it that he found out about this Confundus Charm, then?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Not so much found out as much as me telling him flat out on his post after we boarded the train to go home.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Oh...Merlin. How did that go, then?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

He never replied.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Oh, Merlin. I hope he's alright. I haven't heard from him, but I thought that was just because he was busy...

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

You haven't? Oh dear... maybe he is trying to keep busy, get his mind off things. Or would he have written Black at all?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

I honestly don't know. I could ask Sirius if he's heard anything from him, though...

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Right, you do that.

But now that I think about it, how did you know that in the future I apparently fall in love with Potter?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Oh. Well, there... There was a virus, and it showed... Well, I got a glimpse of what was to come. And then I talked to Dumbledore about it, and well. That situation. That's how I found out.

[Remus is being intentionally vague, here, in hopes she'll be happy with just that]

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

There was a virus able to do that?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Yeah. It... It posted a video, and the video, well. It was pretty revealing, as it was.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Oh dear God....

Remus, do me a favor and never show me that video. Not unless it's absolutely necessary.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

There's a reason I haven't told you about it before now, Lily. It's... It's difficult, knowing what could be. That's why I didn't tell you about James, or James about you. Because...I didn't want to interfere. If it's supposed to happen, then it will happen.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I suppose I must thank you for that. And Potter really doesn't know that I'm supposed to be Harry's mother in the future?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

If he does, it's certainly not because of anything Sirius and I might've said.

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[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Okay, that's good, that is very

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...Did you just say that Black knows too? And he's keeping it a secret from Potter?