[Locked from James, Sirius and Harry]

[flower_of_lions]

I'm starting to think I shouldn't have Confunded Potter to keep him from crashing Slughorn's party last night. But can you blame me? I didn't want him butting in. I have a boyfriend and he seems to enjoy trying to hex them or scare them off.

Anyway, as soon as Dad and I got in the door, Mum told me to change into something smart because Tuney's boyfriend was coming for dinner. So while Mum finished setting the table the doorbell rang. I answered and there was this young man, bit older and taller than me and Tuney, and also rather... heavy. Before I could ask who he was, Tuney rushed right by me and pulled him inside. So I went and asked Mum and she said, "Oh, Lily, I thought Petunia told you already. That's her boyfriend, Vernon Dursley. She broke up with David a few weeks after you left for school."

Then Mum introduced me properly to Vernon, we all sat down for dinner, and I didn't have much to say for the rest of the night except to say goodnight when he left. I don't think I've ever seen my sister so happy and in love with someone before....

But this means that Tuney could be Harry's aunt. He said his uncle's name was Vernon. I want to believe that it's just more of a coincidence, that maybe the surnames don't line up. But deep down, I think there is no coincidence. I think I might be Harry's mother in the future. But James is his father. But that means...

Oh, Merlin's beard, no! I wouldn't. I could never. It's impossible. Maybe when I wake up in the morning, I'll find out this is some awful nightmare. If it is, I swear I'll try to be nicer to James next time I see him and I'll never use a Confundus Charm on him ever again.

((Replies dated to the following morning.))

Comments

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

[...oh crap. She's figured it out...]

Ehm, Lily. Are...are you alright?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...I didn't imagine it, did I, Remus?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

...no, Lily, you didn't.

I'm...going to ask again, then. Are...are you alright?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I don't know... How can I be alright having found out I'm the mother of James Potter's son?!

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

[Merlin, how the hell is Remus going to help here...?]

Lily... I know that you can't see it yet, but. James really is a good person. And he might not yet, but. I have it on good authority that he really will love you, eventually. He's not always going to be the same obnoxious 15-year-old you know now, yeah?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...You're sure he's going to grow up and prove to me that he's really not so bad deep down under all the layers of him that do their utmost to break every rule he can find into pieces?

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

Lily, how else would you explain the fact that eventually, at least in the universe that Harry's from, that the two of you are his parents?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

...Good point. Using Love Potions or the Imperius Curse doesn't seem his style, especially as he probably would have attempted one of them by now.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

No, definitely not his style. He wants you to like him for him, not because of some sort of trick. I just hope...that you finding this out now doesn't change how things work out for the pair of you in the future...

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

That's good.... [And now true guilt is starting to seep in.] I guess... it depends on how I think of him while we're in school and after we leave.

[lycanthropy-101.livejournal.com]

I think...that maybe the best thing to do from here would be to just try and see James for James. I mean... I know that that's not going to be an easy task, or anything like that, but. At least one version of you liked him, so. I. I wouldn't be so quick to throw the idea out the window as impossible, you know?

[God, he really hopes that he's saying the right things, here...]

[ofhopeandglory.livejournal.com]

... ah. Are you sure?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I don't know. I'm not so sure about anything anymore right now.

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

[Oh dear. He wasn't sure it would be good for either Lily or James to figure this out ahead of time...]

Are you alright, Lily?

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

I... honestly don't know, Professor Dumbledore. How is it possible? Am I right or am I getting comeuppance through a very strange coincidence for Confunding Potter?

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

Do you truly want me to tell you? I will, but I would hate to alter your future, or your choices, by mapping it out for you ahead of time.

finally written after a good hour or two of thinking over her answer

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Don't you think I have a right to know and make my own decisions based on my knowledge?

Aww, Lily

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

You have every right to make your own choices. I would just hate to think you would feel compelled one way or another by feelings you might have about a future you would not have forseen.

But if you want to know, I will tell you.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Tell me, please, Professor.

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

You are Harry's mother. You and Mr. Potter became a couple in your seventh year, I believe, and you married about a year after graduation. Harry was born a few years after.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Right. So that's how it is. At least for the Harry I met through the community. It's not a coincidence at all. And... that really is my sister mistreating him. Dear God....

aaaaaaaaaaand added on half an hour later

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

Professor, I know that I know more than I should already, but I must know one last thing. I don't need details, but why is Harry living with my sister and her family?

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

[Oh God Lilyyyyyyy. Though it's only fair to tell her since Sirius and Remus told James about it, too.]

You died, Lily. You and James were killed when Harry when a year old.

[flower-of-lions.livejournal.com]

We were killed... and he was left in my sister's care. To treat Harry so poorly, she must still resent me. Professor, it's not even his fault, isn't there anything I can do now?

[prof-bumblebee.livejournal.com]

For now, I would be there for the version of him that has appeared here at the community.

As for in your own time, I would avoid what led to your death: choose your friends in the future wisely, and do not place faith in Peter Pettigrew.